Finally worked out that you really need to love and look after yourself, because if you don’t no body else is going to do it for you.
Been through hell for half my life, brought up 4 sons by myself, gone through a divorce, lost most of my friends, I had to work hard to keep a roof over our heads and put food on the table
The boys eventually became men and got their own lives, but were never to far away, they all got partner’s then the grandchildren came along, a little bit of joy came back into my life, I think I loved them too much, because when separation between parents happens, the grandchildren seem to be pretty much lost to grandparents forever – unbearable pain to lose your grandchildren, broken hearts all around, there has been a bit of contact through the years, but nothing like the grandchildren just dropping in for an hour or two with mum and dad to visit Nana in a normal fashion.
Time moves on, grandchildren grow up and I guess the pain subsides, but the thoughts of all the lives so badly affected is never to far below the surface.
All the children growing up in today’s society in one parent families. So Sad.
But if you are to live your life and be happy and not die with a broken heart, you need to find joy once again in your life, enjoy what pleasures you still have in your life, get involved with what makes you happy, put yourself first for once in your life, be happy and live your life to the fullest